MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Wednesday, September 07, 2005~~

woah! time really flies! i din realize my last entry was lyk days ago. hahaz.

so, immuno pract was over too as well. was over on last fri actually, abit outdated here. it sux lar. cos i fell aslp w/o studyin tt day so end up i got all e calculations wrong..which wa lyk abt 1/2 e qns in e paper? well, wadever. haha. anyway, stayed back for AMB lect jus to noe my marks accumulated so far...haha..was average la. Main objective of tt day was to bring tiff go cut her hair and trim my hair n dye it properly as well cos i kept overlapping my base color wif different color highlights till abit chapalang. haha. But be4 tt went over to toa payoh wif jer n tiff 1st cos appt. was 1+ and it was still early. hmm.

Went over n i trim my hair 1st. Den i dye it duno wad brown to call it but it turned out ok. haha. So i look more guai now. haha..Tiff dyed her hair lyk a lighter brown than mine. She lar, dun listen to me lar! tell her tt the color will turn out lighter den she insist no. End up really lighter. Haha...but anyway, she was lyk screaming away cos it onli cost $30 for her n its cheap lar. haha. Buai tahan her. haha. Aft, we jus went off to meet our fren etc. Went hm ard 11+.

Sat went for yellow ribbon walk wif shiya. Met NPS gina n shihmin they few too. reached sch by 6.30am..peng...slpt at bus stop while waiting for shiya. haha. Den went over to changi n walk started by 9. Walked till 11 lyk tt...phew...aft went to eat wif yaz, den went hm. Was suppose to meet fren but end up i slpt thru. hahaz. Den sotong also got ask wan go K, but i cant make it. Next week kkz? haha...

So i actually slacked till now. Den trying to really start. but I noe its damn hard lar. Jus tired n i DUNO hw to start worz. So much to read up, so much to practise. And its goin to be Goin to be WEDNESDAY alr!!! My god, jus feel so dumb now. Haha.

Today tiff and jer came over to study. We all did maths….started on it and all feel so dumb too lar, cos lyk totally forgot hw to do le lor. Wad integration? Wad Z-test, t-test, chi-square, F-test, ANOVA, wah raoz..dun understand. Yi qiao bu tong lor. Pengz.

Online only, my fren came to chat wif me. Den nick was lyk sth tt he feels lyk quitting course. I was lyk sian diao lor. So jus chat normally. And I told him to change his nick cos it might hav an impact on me. He just said tt I WAS the 1 who influenced him lar. Cos I once told him tt the withdrawal form from my sch office seems v tempting. Diaoz. He said aft I said it, the next day when he acc. His fren go submit stuff, he saw the form from his sch department, and he wanted to take it too. =.= Wad the...haha.

But I feel tt I m quite coward. Haha. Feel lyk giving up easily. Haha. But I noe tis kinda thing wun happen so easily tis time round. I wun sign a withdrawal form n walk out of NP and my course lyk hw I did in JC n get myself stuck at tis phase in life AGAIN. There will always be rough patches lar..must learn hw to adapt n survive lar. I hafta look ahead. Just 2 more wks of academic torture n I’ll get a break frm SCH work for 1mth. Haha. But much is easily said than done. Hang on, hang on...

Calm down...*ohMz*

*我很想放弃，不过我知道我不能。忍着点儿，一切很快就会平息。要相信，会有那么一天*

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